Monday, October 30, 2006
HAPPY HALLOWEEN!
in a few minutes that is...
I don't celebrate Halloween but here ya go. (:
Ugly picture I know. Haha just make do with it, drawing with mouse sucks!
When can I get a pen and pad......*dreams*
I ate my pie
@11:59 pm
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17...
Is it !7? Is it exciting?
All I know that 16 was a rollercoaster......
I hope 17 will be good.
Thanks for all the birthday wishes. I treasure and appreciate them greatly.
No candles... it's alright. I'll have them in years to come! T_T hahaha.
In the past years' birthday entries, they were always sad and I would type long entries. I'm lazy to type lah. Haha.
As I told a friend," Short and sweet, easy to keep!" Hence this short entry.
I want ice cream...
:P
I ate my pie
@8:53 pm
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Sunday, October 29, 2006
The last day of being 16.
Hahaha I should savour every moment of it......
by watching TV and studying.
Lol.
I think it'll be more of the former than of the latter. :P
Can't blame me, the procrastinating daydreamer, right?
Everyone in class is 17 and older except me and another guy. I'm the 2nd youngest. Haha. I prefer that than to be one of the oldest in class, whether it's a few months apart.
Hmm... I think my birthday will be another boring one again, it's just like every other day.
All I can say is that I am proud to be an october baby! (though I was supposed to be born in November)
If only I can experience autumn in Singapore......
*dreams*
I ate my pie
@5:50 pm
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Wednesday, October 25, 2006
All I need is music now...
to sort out my thoughts perhaps?
SCHOOL is killing me, or maybe I'm putting immense pressure on myself to perform well.
I just wish I can deny myself everything but that's just not me.
I want to enter that university course so badly... therefore I need to perform well. No one shall hinder my grades, cos that's for me to decide.
Putting school aside (talking about it just makes me unhappy, somehow), I went to watch Death Note today my 4 hour break. It's a pretty good movie and I wanna catch Death Note 2, which opens in theatres on Dec 28 2006. I like Light Yamagi's room! Haha.
I wanted to watch The Departed initially but it was M18... so goodbye Leonardo. Heh.
I hate projects, and I know projects = you and others screwing up your own grade. That's why I can't rely on projects to pull up my grades. Everything else within my control will. I hope God will grant me the determination and perseverance.
Gah~!
I guess before I hit the shelves, I should enjoy the music.
Bye.
I ate my pie
@6:21 pm
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Tuesday, October 24, 2006
I can't believe I actually cried after listening to a Final Fantasy song! (uncontrollably)
Geez.
I really love that song though. It makes me feel warm and it brought back lots of memories.
Haha hmm...
I want to get the music sheet of that song.
I ate my pie
@1:38 am
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Sunday, October 22, 2006
I am feeling tired... my back is aching. Sitting in front of the computer without moving my butt, someone kick me out of the chair! Haha. oh well, one entry before I go to sleep.
F1 qualifying in Brazil is broadcasted on TV @ 4.30am! No way I'm gonna wake up just to watch that. The final race timing is worst, early Monday morning. That should be the time when I should be sleeping... since school starts hours later. Gah... I shall continue contemplating tomorrow. :P
If there is one good habit I have to learn this month, it's to force myself to put lip cream when the lip skin cracks. I was so lazy once I ripped it (gently) and blood just came flowing out! I was really scared. The cream was with my mum (oh no!) and she wasn't home. All I had was a piece of tissue stuck to my lips. Count myself lucky that I could still drink my soup for dinner. (Yes, no eating of solid food cos I can't bite or chew except swallow.)
I did succumb to tempation twice... I "ate" a packet of instant noodles, swallowing a strand at a time. (Shhh... don't tell the doctors!!! Hehe :D) Boy, indeed it was exhausting! I reluctantly forced myself to swallow every strand of noodles otherwise I'd have been so wasteful. And the recent dinner, my mum cooked noodles (I love noodles!!!!) I pinched some strands of it from her. Maybe 10-15? You know bee tai mak, those really short noodles. I can only swallow noodles as they are smooth. Tiny bits of whatever solid food is difficult to swallow. Perhaps you should try... just swallowing your food without any chewing and biting. Haha, it makes you feel that you don't have the appetite to eat anymore. Hence, whenever I see solid food, I marvel at it but soon after, I have no interest in it or whatsoever.
I've lost 6kg so far, between 2-3 weeks. Please don't try this at all. This is medical, not for healthy people like you! It makes you feel really weak. I have faint spells occassionally. My mum wants me to lose more weight! How bad can that be?! Geez. Recent newspaper articles actually wrote about parents pressuring their child(ren) to lose weight and I understand how the kids feel cos I'm in the same situation. Fortunately, she just nags at me to lose weight but does not force me to.
As you know, I was underweight (due to my height maybe? When I younger, people remembered me as the tanned skinny bamboo -_-") until I was 15 (that's secondary 3) and came under the healthy weight category. Almost 2 years on, I continue putting on weight until now, losing weight. I don't mind losing weight since I know that I can never be skinny again (not easy and I don't ever want to be skinny again... read above!). My mum just wants me to be slim and I want that to. I'm not obese, I just need to lose weight in the right areas. ^^
Woah! 30 mins just zoomed by. I don't type long blog entries... and to me, this is kinda of a long entry already. I should stop and go to bed.
Sunday Sunday! What a wonderful day. I miss church. I miss going for mass. Darren, should I call you? Haha too late I guess. Maybe I should force myself to go to church next Sunday. If there's one place that I feel comfortable, it's definately at church. I think I've neglected my spiritual life a lot ever since school started this year. New environment, new subjects etc. I have to learn how to work with male classmates. (No doubt there are 2 males at home, it's different... they're my family!) I wonder if I am a nightmare to them. Haha I think so. =X
I still love being in a girls' school. Those 10 years, I'll never forget. Memories, oh so nostalgic! *_*
Good night, and good luck!
;)
I ate my pie
@12:09 am
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Thursday, October 19, 2006
School is starting next week!
I wonder if my school is the only one which starts next week, since the other polys have already started theirs. Hmm....
New semester timetable just sucks, in my case. It is "not three not four". Hahaha. In mandarin, it's "bu san bu si". In other words, messy. Well, kinda.
I'm in a dilemma over something. Sigh.......
oh yes! Remember the list of things I'd posted in the past which I told myself to try my best to complete? Well let's see....
*Psst! My bro is eating fishball noodles and I can't eat it! T_T I wanna cry so badly. Haha. Someone please treat me fishball noodles when I can eat solid food!*
I've finished baking the cookies. 3 things I didn't do... revamp my blog (I will), read at least 2 books (that I give up) and make my German noodles (perhaps next time).
okay time for dinner... soup soup soup. Bleaugh.
I ate my pie
@6:31 pm
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Saturday, October 14, 2006
Tagboard sucks.
After using it since 2003, I've decided to give it up since the whole damn website is down. I can't even log into my account! Looks like tagboard users online all have this issue.
I'm changing it to cbox for the time being, altho I don't really like it cos it's not flexible in the sense I can customise it, the way I did with tagboard!
Sigh, I'm sorry but all previous messages are lost. Please tag at this and make do with this.
Thnx.
:/
I ate my pie
@3:42 pm
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Monday, October 09, 2006
Channel 5 just broadcasted Snow Patrol's Chasing cars MTV and I must say I truly prefer this, the original, to Jon leong's version. I've never liked the latter's version. Sorry. Haha.
I've been having weird dreams lately and this one is one which I remember vividly. I woke up after that.
I actually dreamt that my care person was my art teacher (wth?!) and he refused to let me complete my artwork! (WHAAAAAAT?!?!?!??!) I was distraught and devastated. Damn. Haha I cried profusely alright! Next moment I knew, I woke up. Phew.
That was really stupid.
Gah....................................................
My mind is blank!
I ate my pie
@8:33 pm
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Sunday, October 08, 2006
I went to visit some of my secondary school classmates' blogs to see how they were doing and I just wanna say...
I MISS 4H sooooo much I feel like tearing!
Yes it's that bad. Haha. I really miss everyone, irrespective of whether some of us were close or not.
Everyone has their own life now... sometimes we 'forget' (?) to talk to one another.
Poly peeps seem to have more in common in terms of school stuff. JC peeps are in another world of their own but nevertheless, these girls make up the 4H which I'll never forget.
And those who were classmates with me for 4 long years, they are even more special. 1H, 2H, 3I (some stupid extra class was created in sec 3 or else we'll be 3H) and 4H.
I miss wearing school uniform! Although sometimes it made me feel really warm. I'll never forget my 8 years as an IJ girl and the 10 years of education I had in 3 different convents. It's different than of those in government schools. Plus, I've always liked studying in a girls' school. Students in girls' schools are different, aren't they? :D
Just feeling nostalgic.............................
I miss all 4H-ers!!!!!!! <33
I think it's the first time I actually put <3 in my entries. Haha. :P
I ate my pie
@5:36 pm
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DAMN IT!
Haha sorry but I can't help but feel frustrated that Shummi's car failed. He was leading all the way and suddenly the smoke was fuming. Just like Alonso put it," It's not often that you see a Ferrai break down." Geez. I'm not happy that Alonso got 1st. I was never a fan of his though I must admit he is among one of the good drivers I admire. Never mind Shummi, he will (and had better) win the Brazil Grand Prix! And the Championship!!! Then he can retire with great glory. Lol. :)
Ahhhh a new school semester is starting in 2 weeks time. I must bake my cookies and make my German noodles before that. I have to visit my doctor tomorrow and I really hope he does not give me a new dosage of medicine. Consuming the medicine was really sucky. I hated the sight, smell and taste of the medicine though they were all for my own good.
I still don't 'see' myself losing much weight even though I'm on liquid diet for perhaps a couple of weeks or more. The weighing machine in my house has been spoilt for gosh-no-one-knows-how-long so I can't weigh myself. The last time I weighed myself was in the hospital, where I lost 1.2kg just for donating 2 packets of blood within 2 weeks. I have no idea what I weigh now but I've been sitting all day and this 'routine' has continued since I was discharged from the hospital. If I become too active I'll probably faint and I find myself feeling weaker. For example, I can't twist open the cap of a container which I could in the past!
My lunch is just a bowl of campbell soup without those chicken or mushroom bits cos everything has to be liquid. Gasp you say but drinking (no eating at all!) had never been such a torture for me for the first week. I drat meal times. During the initial period, I took 10-15 minutes just to finish a small cup of water through the means of a straw. Now it's better, I can drink directly through the cup slowly so I won't choke. Maybe a couple of minutes and the cup is empty.
I tell you, through this experience, I've learnt to treasure my mouth. Drinking and eating was so easy. At the same time, I've learnt how to curb my temptations. I simply have no interest in solid food cos I can't consume them. So whenever I visit take for example, the 7-11 store, I don't feel tempted by the sweets and chocolates at all! Not a tiny bit. They're more of decorations to me due to their colourful packaging. I turn to the fruit juice section instead and buy a packet because it really aids in my taking of medication. But I'm trying to take less of the fruit juice each time cos I can't rely on it too much. Fruit juices contain lots of sugar that's why when I see Sunkist orange juice, I grab it. My mum brought Fruit tree's fruit juice and there were all those juicy pulps inside I felt so annoyed drinking it.
Woah, it has been some time since I typed such a long entry! I'm just passing time cos my tv prog is going to start pretty soon.
I love that the haze psi is in the good range now.
So... I'll stop here.
Bye! :D
I ate my pie
@3:35 pm
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Saturday, October 07, 2006
I'm contemplating...............
Should I get a cbox?
But I love Tagboard... because of its emoticons. Haha. That's the reason why I've never changed my board since I first had my blog 3 years ago?
I've seen several new varieties of boards but their emoticons do not really attract me. It's their other features which do though.
Perhaps I should stay loyal to this board, the one which I've had for a long time...
Possibilities still opened though. Hehe.
:P
I ate my pie
@5:49 pm
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The 'o' key from the keyboard came off AGAIN.
-_-
Basically, I am pasting the 'o' letter whenever I type. Sigh.
The haze is bad, from what I last saw on TV, the PSI was 102? That's in the unhealthy range already isn't it? Yesterday, I went outside for less than 30 seconds just to admire the round beautiful moon since it was Mid-autumn festival. I had to cover my nose as I walked outside. Visibility was not that good either.
You know, if there is one thing that annoys me the most, it is polluted air. That's why I hate people smoking and exhaust fumes from vehicles. Now that the air is like this as well, I'm staying indoors.
oh and this year was the saddest Mid-autumn festival for me. I didn't get to eat any mooncake or yummilicious pastries like tau sar pia or lao puo bing (wife's biscuit). :( I'll have to wait next year till I have a chance to eat them.
oh yes and I'm reaaaaaaaaaaaally getting tired of my blog layout. I still have no inspiration to do my new layout! And if you thought I would take a blog layout designed by someone else off the blogskins website, the answer is absolute no. I'd rather leave my current layout even though it screams,"Change me!". Haha.
A new school semester is starting soon....... Let's hope I get my ideal CDS and that I recover before school reopens otherwise I can't imagine myself bringing my cans of liquid food to school for meals! And that I can't speak properly to people. Haha.
Alright, my TV progs time now!
Auf widersehen. Have a good saturday!
:)
I ate my pie
@3:51 pm
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Wednesday, October 04, 2006
Let's see...
1) Revamp my blog with a fresh layout. (soon, alright!)
2) Read at least 2 books. (I'm still procrastinating...) <- I GIVE UP! HAHA.
3) Go watch a movie since the last one I had watched was the latest Pirates of the Carribean.
4) Write letters to my penpals.
5) Visit the CD and book stores. I miss those places.
6) Go on a photography day-out like I did in the past. sorta.
7) Buy something :P ...
8) Exercise... I miss cycling around the estate in my mountain bike. Swimming too! And although I hate jogging, I'm gonna make an effort to do that.
9) I've not painted since last year. I will try to paint. But I need some inspiration first!
10) If possible... I wanna bake my cookies!!! (sadly I don't have an oven at home) I plan to try something new but have no definate plans yet. (I WILL! During october.)
11) Make my German noodles! HAHAHA. Right, I miss Germany. :( (unsure abt tt...)
12) Maybe I should get myself a German penpal. Hah. Maybe. (I guess not, after all.)
13) Repair computer. (DIE-DIE MUST! :P) DONE!
I ate my pie
@4:27 pm
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