Sunday, November 28, 2004
I am back from confirmation camp!
BUT
i wanna go back there again!
1st day
There was it was, the grouping list. I was in Grp 12. only 8 people inside! (including the facils).
Members were Cheryl, Melissa, Amanda, Jonathan, Alison and me. Facilitators were Melanie who is in jc 1 and Christian who just finished his O's. I was bored when i reached there. Chatted a little with some pple. Then came the time when we met all our grp and facils. The facils were shouting away "GRP _! GRP _?" Then I heard grp 12. Anw, we were passed tags -- yellow, green and blue with our names on it.
The 1st icebreakers we played [i think] was the one where girls and guys were split up into 2 groups. Then they asked the gals to go and pick a guy to be ur partner for this game. We were all "huh...!, eeeee, how come like that?!, ahyoh, sigh.." But there wasn't any choice so we all went. I paired up with Jonathan[not my grp but my cath classmate? dunnoe] and we were given a balloon and string. Jonathan was blowing the balloon but it kept on defalting? lols. Yea, maybe it was at that part where he was trying to tie it and his long nails [opps =p] sorta pricked it? By the time I went to look for a new balloon, there wasn't anymore. So too bad, we played without a balloon but our legs were still tied. Haha the game was fun lah. Played this in cca before. I purposely went to Alicia and Zachary and tried to step on their balloon and i succeeded! Hehehh! =D At that time, the facils were actually shouting STOP!STOP! but i just continued and i did it. haha Alicia and Zachary were both "HEY! why you step on my balloon?! they say stop already!"
Oh wells, I kept on focusing on stepping on their balloon that i forgot Jonathan. After the game, he said,"Woah! you move so fast until my leg so pain!" haha so sorry =p.
Next was the chop-chili-chop game. By then, we knew everyone in our grp. Actually, I know all of them except for Jonathan[now another one but my grp member] and our facils. It was kinda okay except for some of the funny movements. Everyone tried starting the actions. Yea...the first day programmes were sort of mellowed...not so exciting(?) as the rest of the days. We had sessions too..in the prayer room where talks were given. Everyone was waiting for dinner. We were all hungry. The food wasn't that bad. Actually, for me, i kinda eat everything that is given to me. haha don't really grumble abt it in camps. food is food right? unless it is not edible or sth.
2nd day
This was the 1st time for this camp i presented what our grp discussed during the session in front of everyone else. Yea. haha what really stayed in my mind was the 'Fear Factor' prog. My facils appointed me to be the leader for this prog. I was kinda reluctant at first but decided to give it a try. I was scared I would start to screw up things as I would in some other camps. We were actually quite lucky for our 1st station. It was scorching hot and we were grumbling abt the weather cos my feet couldn't stand the feet the heat on the ground. We were supposed to form this longest chain. We can use anything on us..including us! So everyone took of their shoes and they started pouring water onto the ground and everyone was stepping onto it. We took off our specs, shoelaces, hair strings etc. We formed abt 37m. It wasn't bad, considering only 6 pple in our grp. I heard that when the nx team went to that station, it started pouring! yea, so we were lucky in that sense. Then came the one where we had to use our tee to transport water bombs into the pail. As for the next station, I saw this big box on a table. MEALWORMS! haha cool. I have never seen them in real life except on the tv. The station facils were choosing one who was afraid. We dint know abt it of cos until I heard one of them say "ah! you look scared! comecome!" haha so i volunteered [pretending that I was scared =p I just told them that I was a little scared and they assumed I was and took me. haha]. Everyone was freaking out when they saw the mealworms! I was to put my hand into the tank of mealworms as long as possible so that my other grp members could answer questions. Might as well..cos I don't think I would be much of help in the answering of questions. There was a tlicking feeling when i put my hand it. Tlickish! I felt like pulling out my hand. It also felt like they were biting you but it was not. The facils say that they are just moving around and that if you move your hand more, the worms are gonna bite you. So I stayed still. I got a few bites but they were not a big deal..just tiny dots on the hand. The worst part was during the time when the mealworms started to crawl up to my wrist. It was so tlickish! Luckily Jonathan helped me to flick some down and luckily he dare to touch them! lol..the rest would freak out if i throw one at them =p. The next station everyone in the camp will not forget is the century egg station. It was like ohmygosh! The facils opened the bag and asked us to smell the stuff inside. Bleh! haha. We had 6 pple right..so 2 had to peel the brown colour stuff(?) of the century egg and 4 had to eat 5 century eggs. Cheryl couldn't eat cos she has a weak stomach and will vomit out everything if she eats it. So Cheryl and Amanda peeled them and so Alison, Jonathan, Melissa and me had to eat them. Gross can! haha. I always like to eat century eggs but they were in small pieces to go togther with porridge. This time, it was 1 whole egg. Me and Jonathan split half. It was okay..but later Alison and Melissa couldn't take it and Jonathan and I had to eat. Later...Jonathan couldn't stand it as well! He held the full black egg yolk and showed me, refusing to eat. Can't blame him..no one wants to eat! haha I heard the facils going like Bleh! you pple can't eat lah! Then I just went to eat the century eggs. I ate abt 2 to 3? sick man. I did it cos I wanted to do it for our group. I still remember closing my eyes and my tears were flowing while I was eating. There were times I felt like vomiting. Chewing on and on wasn't the solution so I just chewed for a while and swallow them. Then came the blindfold game. Christian was incharge of tt station. haha I led the grp through this 'web', bench, and playground. Then they were laid against the wall. The camera came! HAHAHA! Shawn came and he pointed to I think it is either Cheryl or Amanda's butt and posed for it. haha i joined in too. They dint know they were taken by the cam until they heard abt it. The evening was not that pleasant. Some misunderstanding happened and I nearly cried. I guess I was too emotional at tt time. But the night was the best thing that happened to me during the camp...or maybe my life. We had praise of worship and it rocked! yea, i loved it so much. I cried during it while singing here i am to worship. Then they told us abt receiving the holy spirit. Yea. Our facils would be praying for us.
Before it was my turn, i prayed and in my mind was me running towards Jesus. Yea, that was what I felt. I feel that my relationship with God is like running into his arms like a child and hugging him. Then, we would sit under a tree with other children and we would sit down and listen to his stories. We were all innocent and i really like that feeling. The innocence i can never forget when i was really young. I felt kind of warm at that time. I could feel God's presence and it was great. Then came my turn. I stood in front of my facil. While Melanie was in front of me praying and Christian behind me, I was feeling empty? I don't know. I was asking where is the holy spirit? How come I dont feel you? Come to me. It was noisy and I could only hear a few words out of the prayer that Melanie said for me.
I was resisting when i felt I was going to fall. I was wondering why I was going to fall forward instead of back. I told myself to stop resisting and just open up myself and just fall. It took some time before I just opened up myself and I fell. Melanie got me and then my neck was held. I started crying and suddenly I heard Christian saying,"Trust me." and i was laid on the floor. I felt like a burden was lifted out of me and I felt a light feeling. Actually, i do feel that now.
3rd day
Amazing race! walk here and there. Luckily we live around this area and we know parts of the area. Legs ached. My back ached like mad. shoulders were pain and all. but it was a team activity and i enjoyed it in that sense. yeap. Ohyea, dinner time was funny. Our facils had to wear a white top cos that night we were gonna meet our parents and our facils..yea, meeting them too. Christian wore this long sleeve white shirt with black pants and he looked like a waiter! Hahahaha! we are teasing him. Melanie also did. Then suddenly, he got serious and said sth like this," Melanie, I am so disappointed in you. You are a facilitator and yet you could say sth like this to me." I can't really remember the real words but yea, sth like tt. Some found it scary but i know he was joking lah. haha. Then later melanie said sth and chrisitian couldn't here or sth and he kept on saying huh? huh? Melanie got irritated and said shut up. lol. We were all laughing at our dinner table. Other grps were like wondering what happened to us. haha.
4th day
We could eat out for breakfast so we decided to go to serangoon gardens to eat since it was nearby. We were walking until the bus 136 suddenly appeared and we ran after it. Nearly stepped on dog shit! haha. Luckily we dint. Woah, i miss the you tiao there. Haven't been eating that for more than a year. After that, Christian wanted to treat us to Coffee Bean. I was like yey! cos i really miss Coffee Bean. Everytime i go out, when i pass by famous amos or coffee bean, i just cant resist to go in there but i have already learnt how to control so it is kinda okay nowadays. The ultimate! haha the flavour my tongue is addicted to. Anw, I had to leave for ltc at arnd 2 and it was sad. We took our grp pic and before i left, i cried. oh wells, i didnt want to leave! Anw, before that, i left the money that chrisitan treated me the coffee into his envelope.[we had this warm fuzzie writing u see..yea. friend to friend. write a note and put it into ur friend's envelope..OHYEA! haha alison! where is my $10 million dollars? lol.]
Ltc was okay. Had 6 hours of sleep for like almost 60 hours. was real shagged. got sun-tanned cos we were under the sun for hours. walked alot in both camps. Pegasus, my group in ltc won! I am so happy for my campers. I dint know the leader's grp wad called tucana until the last day of ltc? lols.
Confirmation was pretty okay. I am so glad to be confirmed! After Father James put his hand on my head and blessed me, I felt like crying. Maybe it was the holy spirit. Yeap. It is so powerful i tell you, the holy spirit i mean..with all the experiences i had in the camp. After the confirmation, I collected my certificate and passed up the YES camp form. I am going! haha. it is for 15-21 yr olds. And im also joining a youth grp nx yr. Out of post-con, zion's joy, fits and the cathecist training thing, i chose post-con cos they get to do almost everything. Yea and my facils also inspired me. I hope everything goes well. In post-con, we get to be facils for church camps. =) but it is only for 3 yrs. =( sec4, jc1 and jc2. so sad! haha but anw, i really look forward to it.
I wanna go back to confirmation camp! It will forever be in my memories. And as you know, i treasure memories a real lot. Thank you to everyone i met in the camp. Yea you rock! haha. Like finally i understood the meaning of love. You can call me mad but yea, before the camp, i only see the surface of love but now i know the meaning of it. It is so powerful. Wanna thank God for everything.
I love you Jesus! =D
I ate my pie
@4:50 pm
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Saturday, November 20, 2004
Finally, it is done.
Changed it from black to white.
I just can't stop reading the poem
i wrote last night.
haha oh wells.
Something happened and i just
dunnoe what exactly happened.
Lols.
Confirmation camp in 2 days time!
which is this coming Monday.
LTC is in 5 days time!
which is on Thurs.
Confirmation is in 7 days time!
which is nx Saturday, during evening mass.
Almost everyone is buying new clothing
specially for it. haha
Anw, i managed to get sth white and
i guess that's enough.
HAVEN'T PACK BAGS YET!
ahhhhh-
2 camps in a row
and i still...
okay i will go and pack my bags.
BUT fer now, i shall go cycle!
since the weather is kinda cool.
cyas =)
I ate my pie
@4:48 pm
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Friday, November 19, 2004
Memories are just wonderful.
They cannot be described by words.
[as for my case]
It is like a play
whether good or bad
they are hard to get.
So treasure each moment
you may never know
a person you meet
will also remember so.
My eyes are beautiful gifts
they let me see the world
they are so precious
i would never let them go
so do my ears
i want them to listen "yo"
the breeze or cold air
brushes against my cheek
the pinkness reddens
into a smile never so sweet.
They touch my heart
just like the little rain drops
fall onto my tart.
i felt whoops
and let out a little fart.
Please dont laugh!
Give me a little dart
I will throw it up into the sky
where the twinkling stars
shatter my eyes.
The sky so blue
the leaves so peaceful
the yellow sun
just like my water gun.
But don't fret,
I only use it for fun
to prank on others
just like my laughters.
The view i see
influences me
both my mind
and my heart.
What to do,
photographs let you feel
but they don't let you deal.
These constant flow
whether a river or breeze
you go guess
until your brain go freeze.
So much for it
It touches my heart
and never ever ever
will we part.
Nostalgic.
yea i wrote that. haha
suddenly felt poetic.
it doesnt sound like a
proper poem right? bleh
but who cares?
enjoy =)
I ate my pie
@6:41 pm
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Wednesday, November 17, 2004
yeys. haha made a new temp.
at least this looked better than
the previous one. =p
There is chi test tmr! sigh.
gtg. cyas! =)
I ate my pie
@7:09 pm
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Sunday, November 07, 2004
My thought of revamping my blog
has perished.
so...
im leaving my blog to rot.
[ fer the moment ]
=/
I ate my pie
@8:43 pm
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