Friday, April 30, 2004
heys. exams in a few days time. sigh. ARGH. [frust] i cant stand it. oh well.
gtg now. shall blog after exams.
this blog layout is sure better than the previous!
mad with frisbee-
cyas! =)
I ate my pie
@5:48 pm
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Tuesday, April 27, 2004
In the morning, I was talking to my mother across the living room. Then I saw this big black-brown "dust" in the middle of the floor.
Me: Wassat?
She: Dunno.
Both of us went closer to look.
Me: SPIDER!! Quick smash it! AHH!
She: Quick quick!! give me the newspaper.
She smashed the spider. GosH. My heart was pumping hard. I hate spiders..esp those in buildings. You know those big and poisonous ones in Sungei Buloh? I remember I went there with some of my classmates for Geog project. Then we were observing it on its web..suddenly it jumped [Nearly] on Jamie then she screamed. [i think] then all of them rushed out of that place and i was just there standing like a blurblock until they told me what happened. oh well.
Then on the way to school. I witnessed an accident. The taxi smashed the left side of an "lao pok gai" or old car and the glass shattered and flew some distance. Then came out the driver and a woman carrying the baby. The baby was in real shock [like duh!] and she or he was crying frantically.
School was okayy. Tuesdays are my fave. Bag dam light. No counc meeting today. Yeyea! =p We played Bball during PE. YEY. long time no play! i miss bball. The worst part of it is not getting the chance to throw the ball into the net. Managed to only throw once. Abt 18-20 pple came to play while the rest of the class sat one corner. Later they went one corner to play Monkey. [bball betta! =x] Some pple got "sick" of bball and went to play monkey.
Exams nx wk. Sighsighsigh. I MUST WORK HARD! my spirit is strong but flesh is weak. determination. i betta do well man or else my parents will be unhappy with me. But tts not the most important part. It is my future. If i dont score well then it will make me sad then yea..alot of things. So i better do well. not better but must. gotta go do hw now. May not blog until after exams.
Whoever u are..Best of luck for ur exams and dont give up! =)
Cyas!
I ate my pie
@8:13 pm
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Saturday, April 24, 2004
just had a new blog layout. not completed yet. sigh. gotta go.
cyas =)
I ate my pie
@1:13 pm
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Tuesday, April 20, 2004
Heyyoooooo! I like Tuesdays. The bag is the lightest of all. Few books to carry. suck when bag is too heavy. anw, today there was counc meeting. something happened. i dont know but y i cling onto a friendship with someone. no one really likes to get near her..(i guess) and pple talk behind her back. She is almost opposite from me. Different character and personality. Shes more emotional and does not get well easily from getting hurt while i do quite quickly most of the time. on the bus, i advised her in my way of talking nowadays..have both direct and indirect views..[cos i used to speak directly to pple and perhaps cause some offences to some pple] telling her to take things easy and take things in the stride. perhaps shes not so optimistic like me..perhaps shes more pessimistic. i dont know. should i cling onto this friendship? i felt i should. i felt tt wads she feeling now..i felt tt all in the past and perhaps now too. They had made me a stronger person...in willpower i guess. she feels alone and lonely. so do i. she feels not being understood. so do i. but it is just how u look at things which make u a betta person. when im sad, i look things asif everything is crumbling but soon after, i become normal and happy again.
she told me she dint like sec sch life. so i asked her abt pri sc life. she said it was horrendous. hmmms..i thot. i told her my experience. i felt tt pple looked down on me and [they did] wadeva i wanted to voice or speak..they wouldnt give a dam abt it cos they thot i was a small fry but i told myself not to care abt other pple opinions. oh well. now her nick says im unique or sth..i rem i was lik tt too! thinking i was unique and stuff..blah. but i soon learnt sth and felt differently..not unique anymore but sth else.
ont thing..shes more 'expressive'. tts y pple.....should i carry on? anw, see..another difference. i express thru feeling..and by heart while she uses action and words.
should i or should i not? oh wells....... think let me help this gal which reminds me of myself last time.
i guess. xp
sayonara!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! =)
I ate my pie
@11:04 pm
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Sunday, April 18, 2004
feel happy today. My penpal from Japan sent me an email...and she is coming to study here soon! YesH! i guess tt was the only thing tt made me happy today. well, im doing the counc webbie now. the old one is left there rotting. the new one looks better. no offence to jenn k. sorry for causing u inconveniences if i did. cos u know..i rather check the details first rather than doing it and later dunnoe where i land to. yea.
well, may blog later if i can.
cyas! =)
I ate my pie
@6:04 pm
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Friday, April 16, 2004
im a troublemaker! i talk lots of idiotic things! i know i know. I make everyone unhappy. I just cant seem to please u all. And i wont. I will not please u all...ever again. I will become cold and unfeeling..make u all feel asif i do not have a life. Do u want it? Even if u say yes, i will not do it. You. You do not have the right to control me. I dont have to please everyone. Who am i? Im just being myself. u idiots. shuddup. u have caused me unhappiness and hurt to me and i have done it the same to u..perhaps so, tho i do not feel tt way. yes i cant please u all. im not a miracle. i know im just a person all of u look down. But i shall not think tt way. I will live my life till the very end. im feeling the stress. the pressure. the pressure is just too great. sometimes i just cannot take it anymore. i just wanna collapse or shout like a freak. but im controlling myself. where did my years of cultivating my strong willingness gone to? come back. i shall not be overcomed by the pressure. my strong will makes me live.
byye and perhaps i may come back. back to find whats lost in my life.
I ate my pie
@10:23 pm
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Blueprint: Princess Moon. Watching it now. Nice! =D
buai!
I ate my pie
@8:41 pm
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Tuesday, April 13, 2004
Long time no blog. oh well, been busy and stressed lately. it will be worse nx few weeks. Exams are coming soon. Im disappointed with my common tests results. Failed some subjects. Sigh. I just dont understand them and it is just tough. Perhaps another additional factor..i was not interested in the subject. Trying to find a new blog layout. This one sucks so yuck. but its so troublesome. futhermore..i still have lots of work to do. Wont be able to blog alot in the coming weeks..until exams are over! then it is FREEDOM! or perhaps not. still hafta plan ug camp, counc thingy blahblahblah. I guess the only moment i can relax is after O levels. That will be like after this and next year. Sigh. Have to wait for so long. Gonna work after tt to earn money.
Tmr is swim meet! have duty...as a timekeeper. 1st time doing tt. someone told me tt the job is boring but i kinda look fwd to it. Hope i wont feel bored..just as what she said. i still remembered what happened during last year's swim meet [tho i dint go cos of an event]. i dint know it until our principal lectured the girls abt it. it was some booing abt the guys swimming for the house or sth. u know like theres invitational relays..and this house got guys from a mix sch. Yea..they dint boo. Just reacted with Haiz...(so many pple saying at a time..of cos it will be loud right?) It is over and i shant talk abt it now. Pity them.
Gotta do bio proj now.
Cyas! =)
Nomatterwhat, im gonna cheerup. Even if the education system drives me to a corner!
hehhhehhh =p
I ate my pie
@8:55 pm
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Saturday, April 03, 2004
hey sorry nv update =p there are lotsa tests and projects until im gonna turn into a maddo soon. sigh. anw my mum is cooking chicken wings now. so gosh. my fave lor =) smelling it like crazy. changed song. this is so much better. yea cyas! =)
I ate my pie
@6:14 pm
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